Thursday, February 28, 2008

Good, Better, Best

I have been pondering lately about the things I would like to accomplish in my life.  It's a long list.  The thing I struggle with is whether it is wise to have these goals.  They are all "good" goals, but are they better and best?  I have watched friends and acquaintances accomplish wonderful things, I have been slightly jealous of them.  Not because of what they have accomplished, but because they have set a goal, and met it.  Because they have found a balance between what they want and what their responsibilities are to their children, family, God, and church.

I have really wanted to start my own business.  I want to do something creative.  My latest thought is to design quilt patterns and sell those, and make quilts to sell on the side.  For those of you who know me well, you know I love quilting. This is something that does enrich my life.  But, my big question is why do I have to be "successful" to make it worth something?  I have pondered long and hard about this.  It takes energy and time to make the patterns/quilts.  Then there is the marketing, promoting, etc.  Should I really be doing this?  Then I say, am I just chickening out?  Am I making up excuses so I don't have to risk?  Basically, what's the deal?  Should I spend my energy and time on something that might bring me extra money,  a sense of accomplishment, and maybe pride?  Those things are all "good", but are they better and best?  Who knows.  When I get down and deep I realize they are just good.  That I could spend my time doing better things...but I still long for worldly praise, extra comfort, etc.

What is the answer?  I guess I already know, but I am mourning the loss of "possibility."  Or, of course, I could say...."Maybe later."    I have already started making some patterns, maybe I could just do this a little at a time, and by the time I am 70 I will be ready.  ha ha ha ha.  I just hope whatever I do decide to do (or not do) will be "best," and not just "good."

5 comments:

Ponczoch Family said...

That's a tough one... to me, your quilts are the best... they are what I compare all others to- honestly. They are cute, modern, unique, of very high quality, etc, etc, etc. I loved taking mine around with me everywhere when my girls were babies- oh, the compliments I received! Anyway, good luck with your decision. I think you have a lot of knowledge and talent that could help others, but like you asked, is that good, better or best? Wow, that was long.

Christine said...

I just found your blog! I'm so happy that I'll be able to stay up on your cute fam!!

Min said...

Is there anything "better" than doing something you love? Our whole lives are about finding balance, and we are constantly being pulled in different directions, as women often at the expense of ourselves.
Do what you love, I say. Whatever comes from that is just a bonus. (goals are okay too, but not if they induce guilt ;-)
Good luck.

katie and co. said...

It's all about balance Sarah! You can totally do a little bit of everything if you keep your perspective and focus on the right stuff. This doesn't mean that sometimes your life won't be out of balance...but at least you will have no regrets that you didn't do your part to fulfill YOU! (I speak from experience...go for it!)

PS
Why are you even worried? You have endless energy! Remember? What a gift from a loving Heavenly Father!

Summertime Designs said...

Sarah, I love that you're a thinker. Timing is everything, isn't it? Obviously to start a business takes committment and time away from your family and other important things. You have been blessed with such amazing talents and it shows in the quality of the quilts you make! But your talents also lie in the fact that you are an amazing mother and wife (and triathlete!!!) Maybe I can be your one and only customer, and then you won't feel too overwhelmed!