I have really wanted to start my own business. I want to do something creative. My latest thought is to design quilt patterns and sell those, and make quilts to sell on the side. For those of you who know me well, you know I love quilting. This is something that does enrich my life. But, my big question is why do I have to be "successful" to make it worth something? I have pondered long and hard about this. It takes energy and time to make the patterns/quilts. Then there is the marketing, promoting, etc. Should I really be doing this? Then I say, am I just chickening out? Am I making up excuses so I don't have to risk? Basically, what's the deal? Should I spend my energy and time on something that might bring me extra money, a sense of accomplishment, and maybe pride? Those things are all "good", but are they better and best? Who knows. When I get down and deep I realize they are just good. That I could spend my time doing better things...but I still long for worldly praise, extra comfort, etc.
What is the answer? I guess I already know, but I am mourning the loss of "possibility." Or, of course, I could say...."Maybe later." I have already started making some patterns, maybe I could just do this a little at a time, and by the time I am 70 I will be ready. ha ha ha ha. I just hope whatever I do decide to do (or not do) will be "best," and not just "good."